i will

do you still remember ? In that rainy day, i asked for your picture . because i thought if not now, i can never see you again . i even followed you . you asked me to be in the picture with you . since i am all soaked so i rejected. and that day, you were so cute .

back then, i used to take a peek at you. after the class end . at dewan selera . when the teacher was absent . i used to use ever single chance i had for you . even sometimes, our eyes met . such a beautiful memories . 

now, i'm going to do what i said last time . i will forget you . i will go . it won't be easy as when i fall for you but, i will try harder . so , don't say that you are not going to met me anymore. don't say that you will go. just stay here so that i will able to forget you. 

I'm sorry i make it hard for you . I'm sorry, and thank you for staying all this time . 

lelaki

hye hye hye ... annyeong ha se yo ^_^

cuty2 sem macam nie nampak je macam blaja tapi sebena nye tak pun ... haha well , ade la jugak cikit2 setakat isi mase lapang . itu pon bile lappy ta de depan mate ... kahkahkah 

knp ap nye ? tajuk entry kali nie ? biarla , bukan nak cite pasal laki2 baru pon . laki lame jugak ... lame yang mne ? aik , owg ade satu je laki dlm hidup nie dulu dan sekarang .. haha

sebenarnye ta taw patot ke tak tulis psl entry nie . but then terase semua organ2 dlm badan akan meletup letup ibarat menelan bom tangan sebab ta de tempat nak luahkan. sebelum tue , mestilah mintak maaf dulu kan pada sape yang terase *even i know u wont be able to read dis*

owg tinggal dengan seorang lelaki bersame seorg wanita dan 4 org gadis lain . biase la, daughter mesti akan lebih rapat dengan mak dye kan kan kan . tapi tak bermakna dye tak sayang kan bapak dorg . well, ini pun depends la mcm mne bapak dorg lyn dorg. btol tak ? btol tak ? then , that is how it goes . My father and I........ we are so so not close sampai kan owg rse bile kluar berdua dengan dy owg rase kekok . rse berdosa pulak ad perasaan mcm nie . oh guys ! plez tell me i shouldnt feel like dis . rse na bunuh diri skrg . 

ta pasti sejak bile, myb bile start sklh menengah kot . abah da lain . dy ta mcm dulu . kitorg satu family mmg da lame gile tak hang out same2 . there was not even once after high school we had a chance to go for a holiday. because he hide something for himself from his wife, she accused him negatively. but he sometimes show that negative side of him until for a certain period his daughters believe in their mother's word and that made the father-daughter relationship became worse . 

he is nice . so nice that i became too aware when he acting so good towards me as i though "ahhhh, he must need something from me". but who knows i was right, he do need something and i can just laughing silently and sadly inside . i told my self i need to hurry and ask him what is wrong with him but everytime i tried, i just can't. to be truth , i just sometime hate it because my family wasn't like the other happy family .

ta taw la sama ada nie dugaan dari tuhan atau ap . kalau betul ini dugaan yang perlu ditempuhi , tolong la Ya Allah , ampun kan lah segala dosa ahli keluarga ku dan harmonikanlah hubungan di antara kami . owg , tersangatlah jelez bile tengok family lain happy together2 macam walau ade bencane yang menimpe dorg sekalipun, dorg still akan bersatu . wasnt that what family for ? because of dis one man i lived with , i dont trust any other man and also because of this, truthfully, i am afraid to get married . should i just stay alone forever ? that doesnt seem like a bad idea after all . haha 

thats all . keep it as a secret between us bloggers . ^_^

see you for the next entry and plus i will try to keep my blog update frequently . fighting !!